Apologies

" You took away the pain
(Only to give it back again)
Was it too much for you to handle, see it through?
You played the foolish game
(Why don't you try and use your brain?)
Do you know what its like to lose?
Do you? Do you?"

And in his heart, is a child, spoiled and rotten. I have become a mere trophy to cling to, having no more emotion or feeling, no worth at all. What has this become? Have I indeed spoiled him so much that he believed he'll just have this grip on me, tormenting my heart for ages to come? How I do so love him. My body fails me, and my mind is so weary. I will look to God for strength.

No matter what, he is tearing himself apart from the hood of friendship. Casting it aside. he has become the monster. Someone I do not recognize. Suffering, I'll hide myself in the memories of him...so I can take comfort in the arms that used to hold me.